Queen of Diamonds [Poetry]

Dusting off the pages from my journal. Some synchronicities are hard to ignore

Queen of Diamonds Card

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1. Finds Queen of Diamonds playing card in library book “Where the Sidewalk Ends.”

2. Hears “House of Cards” by Radiohead later that day

Is this all you think of me? 
Just sittin' pretty in the southern sun 
Hair done up 
Waitin' for my time to shine 
Bidin' for my husbands' time 

You still think it's all just lust? 
That would make things easier for you 
Are asking me to give it all up? 
Where exactly are you at? What are you giving up? 
Sorry for the bluntness

Yes, it's true: You deserve the best 
The problem is... well, the rest 
Where to begin? 
How to explain? 
There's no logic to this game 
In fact, a lot of the time all I feel is pain 
But maybe that is better than nothing

Lately, I can't refrain from thinking of you. Again. And again. And again. 
If we meet again, will it be the same? 
The stupid thing is I know you feel it too 
Now what

Drawing in my journal. I think I’ll stick to writing.